Why Anger, Why Now?

Why am I angry now
After all has gone me by?
Where joy I saw as it flashed me past
Now see I but that which I detest
And me I detest anew for its' effect.


Shining sun & smiling face
Do naught to lift my heart
The promise of promises to be fulfilled
Leaves me no hope for happiness to come
Just loneliness is gifted me in my duress


So me this prison time arrests
And me grips in cold embrace
As water from a sky of ice
Escapes & mocks me with its' flight
Chilling the heart of me, gray & wasting


Anger me warms not with passion
Blood runs blue & frozen, mocking
The hardened veins deliver no breath
To a heart that cracks with every beat
Is life for me a cursing cross, or is it gone me without farewell?

A Canyon, Far Too Wide

And now you stand so near,
But seem lifetimes away,
The time we never had
In moments, torn away.

So here, I wait for you
My soul in aching need,
To hold you in my arms,
And feel you, loving me.

Will God give me the time
To show you all my love,
Or is He reaching down
To take me, from above?

I know we can't be We,
Til others' paths are walked
And I cannot pretend
I am not reeling, rocked.

But this I tell your eyes,
All sparkling, burning blue
That my girl, my love,
I always have loved you.

So here I stand, beside
The chasm of our wait
To trust our God above
To bless our love, our fate.

To taste your kisses sweet,
Then taste the lonely tears
Of too many times apart
And the passage of my years

My girl, I promise to
Give you everything I know
To make you happy, girl,
Til the moment that I go.

When I lie awake, these nights
I see you, lying there,
I ache to touch your face,
And just caress your hair.

No, patience isn't mine
Perhaps it ne'er will be
But promises, I make
To hold your love, for me...

In Senses Bold

In senses bold, taking life in

Does my mind wander aimless,

Tracking traces of my heart

Upon the doorsteps of those I love

Welcome in, they call

And I sometimes step over

The piles of my regrets

To accept a warm embrace

But knowing my stay within is short

I cast my eye upon the door

Regrets piled higher than before

Blocking my path to evermore.

So out I climb, the effort grows

Til I can no longer face the mound

Of lost possibilities, & missteps

And my journey turns aside.

Within me, I wonder as I wander,

What lies there, awaiting dawn

To pounce upon my consciousness

And skew the path to my redemption

Alone I walk, my hands so ache

For another hand to clasp ‘pon mine

And walk with me, wearing my coat

Amidst the winds of destiny’s chill

Stay warm, companion, mind me not

For cold is my companion, too

The dusting snow clings to my boots

To walk with me until the dawn

In darkness, stride, one step to next

The mocking stars gift me no light

No destination do I seek, now,

For it matters not now where I lie

In senses bold, I take life in,

And send it out, keeping none

Tracking traces of my heart

Past the doors of those I love.